An Apple A Day Keeps the Doctor Away

LJ STRIKE

2008-03-20T23:01:30Z

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Why? Because we can.... isn't that reason enough?

And i know that technically for me it is the 21st today, but im going GMT :D

Stars Are Balls On Fire Burning Up The Black Space

2008-01-22T22:29:44Z

It is a sad day today.

Heath Ledger was found dead in his apartment today.

Im still not over the shock of learning it from the news.

I feel sorry for his daughter and family.

Merry Christmas

2007-12-24T07:03:37Z

Hey guys, Just wanted to wish you a

MERRY CHRISTMAS

And i hope you all have a great day :P

Schoolies

2007-11-23T21:15:43Z

Woot, going down to Sussex Inlet for schoolies today.

I'll be back next week.

finally the formal

2007-11-22T04:28:13Z

My formal is on tonight.

wish me luck

Billie Piper and Doctor Who

2007-11-04T10:07:59Z

[30] - Billie Piper
[99] - Doctor Who (New Series, Seasons 1, 2 &3)
[27] - Doctor Who (Classic Series, Various Seasons)
[02] - Billie Piper headers
[06] - Doctor Who Series 2 wallpapers (Ten/Rose)

Teasers:

Here @ denial_grafix

Icon Awards

2007-10-14T12:08:28Z

I have decided to move the icon awads that i have been awarded from various icon challanges here as it was getting rediculaously big. They are in alpahbetical order

So without further adu

badwolf_lims

hhr_lims

squint_in_awe

sydney_stills

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I Will Go On Until The End: A Tenth Doctor Fanmix

2007-10-01T12:47:02Z

Hey, this is my first fanmix and something that has been in my head for a while now. I would have posted it earlier, but i had issues trying to find some of my song files on my computer.

This mix is based on my interpretation of the Doctor during series 3, and how he deals with the loss of Rose. It is sorta an Angsty/Emo side of the Doctor. I guess if you look at it in a certain way it can be classifed as Ten/Rose. Well that is how i see it... don't know about you guys.

The Beginning Is The End Is The Beginning - Smashing Pumpkins

Send a heartbeat to
The void that cries through you
Relive the pictures that have come to pass
For now we stand alone
The world is lost and blown
And we are flesh and blood disintegrate
With no more to hate

Is it bright where you are
Have the people changed
Does it make you happy you're so strange
And in your darkest hour
I hold secrets flame
We can watch the world devoured in it's pain

Ballad for Dead Friends – Dashboard Prophets

I really wish I could of saved you.
But then who would have saved me from myself?
Right now, I could use a stiff drink,
To kill the pain that's deep inside my bones.

Have you been dreamin'?
I don't dream at all.
I have nightmares.
Memories corilin'.
Have you come to kill what's left?
Of my smile?
There's no vacancy in paradise.

Tears Don’t Fall – Bullet For My Valentine

With blood shot eyes, I watch you sleeping
The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading
Would she hear me, if I called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk is in the wrong direction
**
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home
**
The moments died, I hear no screaming
The visions left inside me are slowly fading

Ordinary – Train

And when the world is on its knees with me its fine
And when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind
Everybody seems to be getting what they need where's mine
‘Cause your what I need so very but I’m anything but ordinary

Can you save me from this world of mine
Before I get myself arrested with this expectation
You are the one look what you’ve done
What have you done?
This is not some kind of joke
You’re just a kid
You weren’t ready for what you did

Firefly – Breaking Benjamin

You my friend
You're a lot like them
But I caught your lie
And you know I did
Now I'm lost in you
Like I always do
And I'd die to win
'Cause I'm born to lose

Firefly
Could you shine your light
Now I know your ways
'cause they're just like mine
Now I'm justified
As I fall in line
And it's hard to try
When you're open wide

Take my hand
We'll be off and then
We'll come back again
To a different land
Now I like this way
You can go away
If you guess the name
You cannot replace

Animal I’ve Become – Three Days Grace

I can't escape this hell
So many times I’ve tried
But I’m still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal

What I’ve Done – Linkin Park

In this farewell
There’s no blood
There’s no alibi
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies

So let mercy come
And wash away
What I’ve done

I'll face myself
To cross out what I’ve become
Erase myself
And let go of what I’ve done

Who I Am Hates Who I’ve Been – Reliant K

I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.

I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.

I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.

How You Remind Me – Nickelback

it's not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
And it must have been so bad
Cause living with me must have damn near killed you

And this is how, you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how, you remind me
Of what I really am

Fighting – Yellowcard

I said I'd moved on and I'll leave it alone,
But before I walk out there is something that I need you to know,
I got lost in a blink of an eye,
And I can never get back, no I've never got back,
You were not there when I wanted to say,
That you were everything that right and it wasn't you but me to change,
Now I got to go it alone,
But I'll never give up, no I'll never give up

What am I fighting for,
There must me something more,
For all these words I sing,
Do you feel anything

I said I'm ok but I know how to lie,
You were all that I had,
You were delicate and hard to find,
I got lost in the back of my mind,
And I can never get back, no I've never got back
You were not there when I needed to say,
I hit the bottom so fast that my head was spinning 'round for days,
Now I gotta go it alone,
But I will never give up, no I'll never give up

Until the End – Breaking Benjamin

So clever, whatever, I'm done with these endeavours
Alone I'll walk the winding way (here I stay)
It's over, no longer, I feel it growing stronger
I live to die another day, until I fade away

Why give up? Why give in?
It's not enough, it never is
So I will go on until the end
We've become, desolate
It's not enough, it never is
But I will go on until the end

Surround me, it's easy, to fall apart completely
I feel you creeping up again (In my Head)
It's over, no longer, I feel it growing colder
I knew this day would come to end, so let this life begin

Please leave a comment if you download the songs, just so i can keep track of the downloads

Things I Have Learnt From My 14 Years of Schooling

2007-09-29T13:49:41Z

Here, as the title to this entry states, is a list of things that i have learnt during my time at school (both in primary school and primary school). Please note that this is in GENRAL, and is not specfic to any certain situations. But it is basically what i have been involved in and/or speculated. I don't know why i wanted to write this... but i guess it is supposed to be comic relief or something. Make of it what you will

#1. Never piss off your friends... even if what you said about them is true.
(That one is a big no-no... learnt that the hard way.)

#2. No matter how good you feel, there is someone who is always gonna put you down.

#3. Your always gonna make a spelling mistake

#4. Never get involved in fights between your friends.
(that one always amazes me... someone always sticks their nose in a screws the situation and blows it out of proportion)

#5. Make sure you always carry a spare dollar for the odd moment where there is a person selling FREDO's

#6. When you are a senior you get kept 'out of the loop' alot.

#7. The Junior years; 7, 8 & 9 are the most evil.

#8. When you assume, you make an Ass out of You and Me
(That is always a good one cause it is true)

#9. Time seems to get shorter as you get older

#10. Time flys when your having fun... but seems to never end in an exam.

#11. Things where much simpler when we were younger.

#12. You can always tell when there is going to be a fight... cause all the student go running to one single spot in the Quad/Playground

#13. If anything can go wrong, it will go wrong.

#14. Agree with the teacher when he says that opposites attract.

#15. Leaving homework and/or assingments to the last minute is not always a good idea.

#16. If you are talking to a friend about something that doesn't intrest you, at least try to seem intrested.

#17. It takes time to build trust and freindship, but only one rumour and seed of doubt to destroy it in a second.

#19. Try and not become self obsessed... not that meany people like it when you talk about yourself 24/7.

#20. When you have a crush, try to get to know the person before you fall head over heals for them.

#21. When people get bitchy and snarky, they also become immuture and act like 6 yr old girls fighting over a doll.

#22. Never put yourself in a situation where someone can use something against you.

#23. Sugar highs are not as fun on the way down.

#24. Teenagers need at least 8+ hours sleep, or they will be grumpy for the rest of the day.

#25. Try and not take life too seriously, it is a journey that will only happen once.

Well that is all i can think of at the moment... If there is something you wanna add, just comment :). And remember it is not to be taken seriously, just something i thought would be interesting to share.

Hermits United

2007-09-10T10:36:10Z

I am like extremely bored at this moment. Well that is probably an exageration at the moment, but still.

I haven't posted in a while... so i thought i would. But i don't know why i bother... no one has commented in ages.

Don't blame you actually, you all have lives, and all i have done is winged and bitched about my family and friends. Makes me seem very angry and emo i guess. But is just so easy to be pessimistic.

Well, anyways... let me see....

Im a hermit and i don't get out out much... school/study has taken over my life

I have three weeks left of school, then i have like two weeks of my HSC exams. I have to fill out my UAC, EAS and Misadventure forms, which sound thrilling but actually gonna be boreing as hell. Appart from maybe the UAC cause that is my Uni applications figure out my first 4-5 choices out ot 9. I wanted to do Foensic Science, but now im not so sure, im leaning more towards Criminology and Pshycology... even contemplating becoming a High School History Teacher.

I have my formal dress for my formal (surprise, surprise). It is totally different to what i had originally wanted, but im not complaining. Also i don't have a partner to go with me... but meh, doesn't matter much, i still have my friends :)

I need to find a job during the 5 month gap that i will have before i start uni (that is if i get in to one). Mum went to one of the guys at her work and even asked if there might be something available then. Isn't she nice lol.

Also i think my LJ needs a new look... thinking of making a doctor who header and perhaps find a new layout also. Something different.

And before i go, i was just wondering if any of you have acounts on Greatest Journal? I only got one for the 100 userpics... i don't even know why i bothered... the coding is a pain in the butt and it seems dead to me.. but then it just might just be me.

This Ship Is Taking Me Faraway

2007-08-31T09:23:44Z

[50] ~ Alias (Sydney centric)
[64] ~ Doctor Who (S1 & S2)
[12] ~ Robin Hood BBC
[13] ~ Harry Potter (mainly h/hr)
[01] ~ Doctor Who wallpaper
[05] ~ Robin Hood wallpapers

Teasers:
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more here @ denial_grafix

Robin Hood & Marian Matching Icons/Headers/Banners

2007-07-12T14:04:51Z

[15] - Robin & Marian Icons
[07] - Robin & Marian Headers/Banners

Teasers:

Here @ denial_grafix

Things You Can Only Learn From Age

2007-07-12T13:01:23Z

I've learned that if you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope that they panic and give in.

I've learned that no matter how much i care, people are just a**holes

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up then you think.

I've learned that we are responcibe for everything we do, unless we are celebrities

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken away from you too soon and all the less important ones never go away.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relation ship is at first, the passion fades, and there had better be a lot of money to take its place.

Pimping cause im bored

2007-06-29T11:23:10Z

Today in 'Tubby is bored land' we will be pimping the lovely lims (last icon maker standing) communities:

drwho_lims and billie_lims

Why?

Cause i can and they want more participants... you don't have to participate in making icons... you could just join in on the voting :)

Icons, Headers + Banners

2007-06-13T11:00:24Z

[15] - Micheal Vartan + 2 headers
[07] - Jennifer Garner
[15]- Keira Kightly
[12] - Stock Images
[06] - Brokeback Mountain + 4 banners
[03] - Harry Potter GoF
[03] - Alias Headers
[01] - Moulin Rouge Header

Teasers:

here @ denial_grafix

My LJ Community

2007-06-09T06:04:03Z

Hi guys,

i have created a community denial_grafix   for my icons and other graphical art because i have been very bored and i wanted something to do. But since i have been lazy i haven't promoted it, that is untill now.

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so come down and have a look around, it is updated with all my previous art that i have created

Icon Time

2007-04-13T02:30:06Z

ok i know it has been a while since i have last posted icons, but life can get hectic.

[66]NCIS
[73]Supernatural
[29]Bones (some have been entered in squint_in_awe)
[15]Moulin Rouge
[06]Step Up

Teasers:

Rules:
- No hotlinking
- Credit tubby2747 when you use
- Textless icons are not to be used as bases or added onto. If you want something changed ask me
- Please comment, it makes me feel loved :)

Resources

You Hurt Me

2007-03-17T10:58:40Z

So i was meant to be writing my 1500 word essay for modern history today that is due on Wednesday and is on Hitler and his use of terror and propaganda. But thats not what came out. I ended up sort of writing a poem out of things that where on the top of my mind. Well i'm calling it a poem... even though only one verse rhymes. Sad? Yes i know. But thats just me.

Any way here it is

You Hurt Me

You hurt me; I don’t know what else to say,

Other than it is going to take a while for me to trust you again.

Friends, that is what we once were,

But now I have no idea.

Where to start, where to end,

This is all too much for me.

Give me time,

Yes, that is all I need.

Everyone has their secrets,

Yes this is true.

Even I have a secret or two,

That are kept, hidden safely away.

I am sad to say, but sorry is not enough,

Many people say it everyday, but never mean it at heart.

Yes, I know that may seem selfish,

But I mean it in the lest possible way.

You go on about things that happen in your life,

And you expect me to understand.

But when I need some time alone,

All of a sudden “something must be wrong”.

People have their moments,

And people change.

Well guess what,

I guess this is mine.

Yes I have changed.

From a time where I would make a comment

And try to hurt you back.

To now where I just write them out.

Maybe one day you will find this,

And I dread to see the day.

Because I have tried so hard,

To keep everything at bay.

Maybe one day, someday,

We will be friends again.

But you hurt me and that is all I can say,

It is just going to take a while to get used to you again.

I Have A Question

2007-03-17T02:49:06Z

How do you add textures to Photoshop CS?

I know it is probably the simplest thing to do... but i can't figure it out and i need some help.

A Flood In A Drought

2007-02-28T10:43:23Z

Today was interesting.... Very interesting indeed.

It all started normal.

Went to school, put up with crap from my friends and i went home early cause i didn't really need to stay.

I was a good thing that i didn't.

About 2ish it started raining, then it hailed and then the hail got bigger. And naturally the roof started leeking and it poured down with rain. Added with the fact of a lot of lightnign and really really loud thunder that was like a whip craking.

So with the rain, the back yard flooded. So it was like 8 inches deep up against the bottom door.

Then the water came... alot of water. our bottome level of the house flooded. But it was only mininmal damage, like only an inch deep and dad went into damage control.

Everything electrical was unpluged and taken upstars... mainly computers. Im just glad my baby still works.

But our floor is tiled and i was taking stuff upstairs and i dropped an empty CD case on the ground so i went to pick it up and droped the blank DVD's, so i picked them up, my dad yelled at me and i took a step and i slipped in the water. That is so totally me im telling you. I didn't hurt myself... i was just a hell of a lot more careful when i walked.

And that was all before 3pm this afternoon. not to mention the power went out three times and then it came back on but i fuse was out.

But we always have fun here... but it was worse at the school up that road. Cars were floating every where and they had it on the news, my dad saw it when he had to go to a meeting and left me and my sister to clean up the mess. the floor is dry, thats the main thing.

But i just love it how we are in the middle of a drought and my house floods.

Only in Australia i tell you. You have got to love the unpridictable Australian weather.

ok random question time

2007-02-12T06:37:29Z

is it just me or has every thing gone to 'Super Size Me' on LJ?

cause all of a sudden the text has gone all massive, and i just wanna know if it is the sight or something that i might have knocked on the keyboard.

Also it is really annoying to have the font in like size 40 something

Flowers & Stone Angels

2007-01-29T05:32:42Z

[06] Stone Angels
[50] Flowers & Nature Related

Teasers

Stone Angels

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040506

Flowers & Nature Related

010203
040506
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131415
161718
192021
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252627
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373839
404142
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464748
4950

Rules:
- No hotlinking
- Credit tubby2747when you use
- Textless icons are not to be used as bases or added onto. If you want something changed ask me
- Please comment, it makes me feel loved :)

Resources

Savin' Me

2007-01-27T11:29:15Z

Author: me, Jessie (a.k.a. Tubby)

Disclaimer: I don’t own any of these characters but I wish I did

Summary: After a terrible accident, Syd is left alone. Set seven years after Vaughn’s death.

POV: Sydney’s pov

Paring: S/V

Song: Savin’ Me - Nickelback

One Partner

A/N: thanks to Alex mixedberrys for helping me and being my beta. If she didn't got to Fiji last year i don't i would have written it.

Savin’ Me

Prison gates won’t open up for me

On these hands and knees I’m crawling

Oh, I reach for you

I sat there and cried. What else could I do? The people that I have cared about the most have been taken away from me. Why? It was because of my so called ‘job’. The thing, that slowly over time, consumed me and became my life. My life, my friends, my family, my lover and soul mate, and my child. All I have lost. When is it going to stop? Why am I cursed? It is like my touch is poison. Everything I held dear to my soul was taken away from me. Forever. And deep down, I know that eventually it shall consume me too. If it hasn’t already.

I look at the watch on my wrist. His watch. The watch that stopped on the first day we met, October 1^st fourteen years ago. And the same watch that started working again seven years later, when the love of my life and father to my unborn child died. A little smile crosses my lips as I remember the time that he told me about his father’s watch. A lone tear falls down my check, adding yet another black streak of mascara to my already pale, streaked face.

Well I’m terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can’t hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I’m calling
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I’m falling
I'm falling

It’s five to twelve. In five minutes, it will be midnight. And then it will be our day, 0ctober 1^st.

A new day.

A new beginning.

Slowly, I get up off the cold, hard wooden floor and walk into my kitchen, pouring myself another drink. I know I shouldn’t, but I do it anyway.

“Daddy, stop. That tickles!” I hear a little girl cry.

Her voice is so familiar, filled with laughter.

Am I imagining things?

No, I hear her laughter coming from another room. I set the now empty glass on the kitchen counter. With the bottle still in my hand, I carefully walk down the hallway towards the room that I hear the voices coming from.

It is her room.

My little angel’s room.

My little Isabelle’s room.

“Please daddy stop it tickles.” The girl begged. The laughter lingering in her voice.

Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be
And say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth savin me

The door was slightly ajar, so I peeked through. Nothing. No voices, no little girl and her daddy. I walked into the room. It was just me, my overactive imagination and a half empty bottle of alcohol in my hand. I had to get out of the room, it holds too many memories. So many things that I can’t bare to face yet.

Instead of pouring my self another glass, I started drinking out of the bottle. I know it won’t heal my wounds, but it helps me to forget them for the meantime.

I want to forget.

I need to forget.

I have to forget.

Slowly, I sink down slowly until I’m sitting on the cold, hard wooden floor resting against the cold wall. Everything in this house seems cold to me. Even I am cold. All the joy in my house, my world, my life had disappeared a few months ago. I want to sleep, yet it won’t take me to the green fields of my dreams about the past and a life once lived. Exhausted, I rest my head on my knees, hugging my legs. Closing my eyes, I listen to the silence surrounding me.

Heaven’s gates won’t open up for me
With these broken wings I’m falling
And all I see is you

“Daddy, do you think mummy can see us?”

I heard a whisper. The same little girls voice, but much softer than before.

A little angel’s voice.

“I don’t know baby, I don’t know”

That voice. That was the one I had been dieing to hear for the past seven years. And I knew, at that moment who it was. Afraid that they would disappear if I opened my eyes, so I left them shut.

“Vaughn? Isabelle?” I whispered, my voice shaking slightly “is that you?”

“You know who it is Sydney” he stated simply.

The tears began to fall down my cheeks freely again, and I wasn’t going to hold them back any longer. I had done that for far too long.

“But…but you both died” I whispered, closing my eyes. Feeling my warm tears run down my cheeks. Wishing those words I said weren’t true, “And it is all my fault”

“Look at me Syd” he said simply. Oh how I had longed to hear him call me Syd once again.

Opening my eyes, I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. Vaughn and Isabelle where standing right in front of me, holding each others hand. Some how I managed to get off the cold, hard floor that I was sitting on. This couldn’t be happening. It was just my mind blurring the lines between reality and imaginary. Blurring the lines of life and death.

These city walls ain’t got no love for me
I’m on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I’m calling
And all I need from you
Hurry I’m falling
I'm falling

Letting go of our daughters hand, Vaughn walked across the room and stopped right in front of me. He looked exactly the same as I remembered him, from when I last saw him alive and healthy. When we were in the train yard, before he was shot. But that was seven years ago.

“Sydney, it isn’t your fault for what happened to me or to Isabelle.” He said as he was staring into my eyes “It was meant to happen, even if you could have prevented it. It was better this way.”

“I love you Vaughn” I said with a smile on my lips.

“I know” he replied while giving me one of his knee-weakening smiles and wiping the tears from my face “I love you too”

How I missed his touch.

“We will be together soon. Just the three of us. A family once again.” My dead lover said.

Before I had the chance to ask what he had meant, Vaughn kissed me. My heart pounded in my chest. It had been along time since I had felt like this. Sighing, I deepened the kiss, savouring the feeling of Vaughn kissing me.

Then it all turned black.

~*~*~*~

*Beep* *Beep* *Beep*

I felt weak, and sleepily I opened my eyes. I wasn’t in my house, in the living room where I had seen my family. Where I had seen Vaughn and Isabelle. But I was in a hospital room, and the brightness of the room hurt my eyes.

“Sydney” I heard a familiar voice.

“Dad?” I asked.

Opening my eyes once more I saw my dad sitting in a chair next to the hospital bed I was in. He took my hand with in his own and rubbed it soothingly and reassuringly.

And all I need is you
Come please I’m calling
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I’m falling
I'm falling
I'm falling

“What am I doing here? What happened?” I asked while trying to sit up, but only to find out that I couldn’t so I gave up.

“Sydney…” he started, trying to find the right words to say, “I went to see you because I know that this day has always been hard for you after Vaughn passed. And now with what has happened over the last couple of months with Isabelle, I didn’t want you to be alone. I found you this morning, on your living room floor. You were unconscious and barely breathing.”

I gave him a weak smile as he had finished speaking, giving his hand a little squeeze.

“But you’ll be ok now, and that’s the main thing” he finished

“Dad”

“Yes sweetheart?”

“I feel tired”

“That’s to be expected after everything you have been through last night. Just sleep, I’ll stay here with you.”

Closing my eyes with a little sigh, I let my heartache go, just for the moment.

“I wish I wasn’t here” I said simply

“Where do you want to be?” my father asked patiently

“I wish that I was on the beach.” I replied taking in a deep breath, “With Vaughn and Isabelle. And we could be a family once more”

A lone tear slid unnoticed down my cheek.

“Maybe that will happen someday” he replied, tucking a piece of hair behind my ear.

“Much sooner then you’ll think.” I whispered

Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be
And say it for me

*Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppp*

~*~*~*~

The blue waves of the ocean crashed gently on the sandy shore. Two silhouetted figures stood side by side holding hands, looking out onto the horizon. One a little girl and the other her father. Walking up behind them, I made my presence known.

Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth savin me
Hurry I’m falling

“You were right” I said, watching my family turn around to look at me. “We are together again.”

My little Isabelle let go of her daddy’s hand and ran towards me, throwing herself into my arms. I hugged her back just as tight, never wanting to let go.

“Mummy, I missed you” Isabelle whispered into my ear, giving me a bright smile

“I missed you too pumpkin” I said as I kissed her forehead.

Taking Vaughn’s hand in mine, we stood and admired the view of the ever stretching horizon around us.

And say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth savin me

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2007-01-22T12:30:01Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANI :)

And just for you i made a whole batch of icons, just of your favourite boys :)

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Every Ship Must Sail Away

2007-01-19T01:00:10Z

ok this is my first posted Alias Fic, so be nice :)

Author: me, Jessie (a.k.a. Tubby)

Disclaimer: I don’t own any of these characters except for Seth.

Summary: Alice and Vaughn were high school sweethearts, but things changed.

POV: Alice pov

Paring: S/V, Alice/Seth, Alice/Vaughn

Song: Every Ship Must Sail Away by Blue Merlie

One Partner

Word count: 1,197

Every Ship Must To Sail Away

Have you ever heard the sounds,

In the shadows of a song?
Have you ever felt the words,

Blow right threw from beyond?

We used to be something. We were once happy, in a time where we only needed each other. Where our love was stronger than everything else we had known. I don’t know how it changed; I just know that it did.

Let me start from the beginning. Michael Vaughn and I were once high school sweethearts. The thought of being apart had never crossed our minds until we both got accepted into different universities. I got into UNY while Michael had stayed and got into UCLA. Being the gentleman that he is, he put my needs in front of his own. I didn’t want to let go, he was the best thing that happened to me, so we tried to make us work.

Cause years pass people change,

Bluer skies could turn to grey.
Though its gonna hurt for now every ship must sail away.
Every ship must sail way

It was fun at first for a while. We would talk forever on the phone every night and would leave each other messages full of promises, which would soon be broken. As time passed, we grew apart. It was bound to happen anyway, and we both knew it.

I found myself falling for my roommate’s brother, Seth. Seth was what anyone would want to be with. He was smart and funny. He had asked me out a couple of times, I wanted to say yes, but I couldn’t do that to Michael, it wasn’t fair. Soon I was faced with two choices in front of me and I didn’t like it. It was between Michael and Seth.

Oh change is in the air,
And you ware it oh so well
I asked you if you cared,

If you care I couldn't tell.

Finally the time came when Michael was to visit me, as we had planed a while earlier. Michael was such the gentleman that his mother had raised him to be and had arrived on my doorstep with a bouquet of my favourite flowers. I could see into his face and his beautiful green eyes that I loved so much that you had changed, just as much as I had. Standing next to you, and hugging you, I felt something that was dormant for a while now. It was love, but a different love to what we had together before. It was a love that one would feel for a friend, not a lover. It was in that moment that I knew my choice was to be.

Cause years pass people change
Bluer skies could turn to grey.
Though its gonna hurt for now every ship must sail away
Every ship must sail way

It was time for the truth, and I had to do this now, before I backed out and put myself in a situation I didn’t want to be in. Closing my eyes and taking in a deep breath to try and calm my nerves, I suddenly blurted out what I had wanted to say.

Though its gonna hurt for now

“Imnotinlovewithyouanymore.”

I had said it so fast that he didn’t catch what I said and was smiling with one of his knee weakening smiles that he was famous for, waiting for me to continue. Slower this time, I looked into his eyes and said what I had wanted to get of my chest for a while.

“I’m not in love with you any more Michael. I fell in love with someone else. I didn’t mean to, it just happened”

Though its gonna hurt for now

I waited for his response but only got his silence in return. It was like that for a while, until I broke it.

“I mean I still love you, but not in the way I once did. Everything is different from before, everything has changed”

“When did this happen?” he finally asked, looking up at me with a questioning gaze.

“I don’t know, it just did I guess” I answered him honestly. “Michael, we are in different states, on opposite sides of the country. Something like this was bound to happen. We haven’t been spending time together. People grow apart.”

Though its gonna hurt for now every ship must sail way

“And this guy,” he had paused for a moment, “It is a guy right? He treats you right, makes you happy?”

“Yes” I said looking down and nodding my head sheepishly. “He is my roommate’s brother. He makes my see everything in a different light and makes me laugh at the simple things.”

Every ship must sail way

With that he just nodded and we sat together on the couch in the silence for there was nothing else to say. After about 10 minutes, Michael stood up and turned to me.

“Well I guess there is nothing else I can do but say goodbye” he said sadly.

I felt so guilty that I had to do this to him, but I had to do it other wise we would have ended up hating each other. With a hug and a goodbye kiss on my cheek, Michael Vaughn was out of my life.

Every ship must sail way

****

Three years have passed now and I’m still with Seth. He had proposed to me last week. It was one of the happiest moments in my life. We had decided to break the news to my parents together. My mother was happy for us and my dad was putting on an act of losing his only daughter, but I knew he was happy for me. I’ll always be his baby girl to him.

I was in a conversation with mum, as she was practically planning the wedding already, when she mentioned Michael’s name

“He has moved on you know” she said simply “She is a really lovely girl too, they look happy together. He deserves to be happy after everything. Her name is Sydney. I can’t remember her last name, it starts with a ‘B’ I know that. Bristow, that’s it Sydney Bristow”

Every ship must sail way

My mother kept on with her ramblings. She loved Michael and he was practically part of the family. Our mothers still had their ‘gossip lunches’ as I called them, once a week and they knew everything about every one, and I mean everything. Nothing was safe around them.

I am glad that he moved on. I didn’t tell anyone this but I saw them together at the mall when I had to go ‘emergency shopping’. He was looking at cereal brands. I was tempted to say “hi, hows things, it’s been a while” you know the usual things you would say to a person you haven’t seen in a while, but a woman sneaked but behind Michael and surprised him by hugging his back and kissing him when he turned around. I could tell from here that they were madly in love. Looking down the aisle I found what I was looking for and walked away.

Every ship must sail way